Over the past few years as I've talked with different people from all walks of life you sometimes come across stories of pain and hardship......Well these aren't just "people" but actual friends.
There's times in our lives when we pray constantly, plead with God and ask other's to pray for us. We're so certain that God has laid out a perfect plan for us and we're just waiting for God to do his work and open up the path. Unfortunately, despite how confident we feel that a certain set of events should go our way, if "God really loves us", it doesn't happen the way you expected. Well actually it goes in complete reverse and instead hurts immensely. So it's not just my friend's that have gone through this but it's also happened to me....well it's kinda happening right now. (hence why I'm writing this)
Anyways, during times like these it's so easy to ask, why? why God? why does it have to be this way? I thought you loved me? I thought you wanted me to have a good life?
But why ask why? I think if God were to answer the why questions, we just wouldn't understand or comprehend his answer. And I think no matter how God answers, we'll find it unacceptable.
That being said, I've learned not to ask "why?" but to ask "how long?", "God, How much longer must I endure for?"
I know there other people out there who are worse off than me but I really feel like I have nothing right now. I thought the days during my startup were bad..it's even tougher now. I don't know what life has in store for me and where it'll take me. I feel like I want to run away but there is nowhere to run to. God has broken me to a point where he is my lone strength and hope.
And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. -- 1 Peter 5:10
Before God can use a man greatly, He must wound him deeply. -- A.W. Tozer, Christian Pastor (1897 - 1963)
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